Wow guys, SO sorry it’s been so long but I’ve been just a LITTLE busy! Last time I spoke with you, Camden was home and baby Jax was still in the hospital recovering from RSV but I guess my radio silence has been a pretty clear sign that we officially have our two wonderful babies at home and we’re loving every second of it. The past few months have been exhausting and trying on the mind, body & soul but I wouldn’t give up a minute of it. These two boys bring me so much joy and happiness, a little stress and sleepless nights were totally worth it!
This is what I now look like on a daily basis, now if only I could use my feet to cook dinner and write blog posts, we’d be in great shape huh!? They are such great babies and generally very happy but when you have two infants to care for, it’s pretty much perpetual motion. All. The. Time. The second you get them diapered and fed and burped and digested, you’re just about ready to start the process all over again. Having gone through the process of caring for them in the NICU for months and stressing over monitors and episodes of not breathing and surgeries and blood transfusions and feeding, the simple stresses of caring for them at home seems like nothing, it makes me happy every day to see two smiling healthy boys sitting in front of me. I’m soaking in every moment, like weekend snuggles…
This is how I’m able to shower in the morning, it’s always slightly amusing to me, how did I get here? 🙂
I cannot tell you how excited and refreshed I feel to have spring upon us now. The trees are blooming, the birds are singing and everyone is emerging from their houses rubbing their eyes from the long rough winter.
I’m not going to lie, it was a tough one! I’m finally starting to feel like myself again, I’m back at work, I’m getting some exercise and I feel like I can be such a better mom because of it. After a rather rough time trying to breastfeed, I finally had to throw in the towel last month and although I feel some guilt for having to do it, I know it was the best thing mentally & physically for all of us. I was able to feed them with breast milk for 5 months and I feel really proud for having made it that far after multiple bouts of mastitis that once landed me in the hospital for a few days with an abscess that had to be surgically drained. I was exhausted and in pain and I felt like I wasn’t able to focus on caring for my babies as it was consuming every ounce of energy I had. I wasn’t really sure if I wanted to share this as a part of me still feels like it was a failure on my part but I know there are plenty of moms who share similar struggles. People can lay judgement and talk about what they did or what they think is best but everyone has a different story and we all have to be compassionate as you never know what another person may be going through.
The boys are just starting to try real foods now and I can’t wait to make food for them in the kitchen and nourish their growing little bodies in a whole new way soon!
They went in for their 6 month appointment this week and I still can’t believe that we’re here. They are doing so well, they are keeping up with all of their milestones for their corrected age. Camden is now 14lb 11oz and Jax is 13lb 1oz which is pretty unbelievable considering they started out at only 2 pounds wearing teeny tiny diapers that made a maxi pad look huge.
They are already developing their own personalities and starting to interact with each other which is so much fun to watch, I look forward to every day as it seems they are always surprising me and learning to do something new.
OH, and because we’re out of our minds and don’t have enough going on right now we decided to buy a new house and sell ours. Do you think we’re insane yet? Probably. But I’m SOOOO excited! We really wanted to stay in the town we live in because it’s such a special little place but we were worried we were never going to find what we wanted. We wanted to do a renovation but were worried what that would do to us with the stress caring for 2 babies at the same time. And then when we least expected it, we were presented with an opportunity to purchase a house down the street that was being built. We’ve been able to be involved in every step of the process from picking out floors & paint colors to lights and (you guessed it) my DREAM kitchen! Complete with a 36″ gas stove and super white quartzite countertops. I’ll share more pics as things are completed but this is where it’s at now and I’m getting more and more excited with each thing that gets completed. Now let’s hope someone comes along and buys our house, EEK!
I never thought I would have the opportunity to design my dream home but here we are.
I also never thought I would have twin boys but here we are.
When life hands you lemons, SQUEEZE THAT BABY!
I can’t say I’ll be back to full posting capacity since my time not spent feeding & diapering babies is usually spent sleeping but I’m feeling more and more like myself every day and the plan is to start whipping up some delicious recipes soon as I’m sure I’ll be inspired by all the fabulous summer produce and goodies.
Thanks for sticking around, miss you guys! Feels good to be back!